*everything happens for a reason*... my motto in life that gets me through a lot of things that I can't understand why they happen. Eventually you find out what that reason is... but sometimes it can take a month, 6 months or even a year. Right now there are things happening in my life that I have yet to find out what that reason is. Things that have happened which I am now thinking it has happened for the worse and not for the better. Everyday I search for the good behind it all... but never seem to look in the right direction. Instead I find excuses to justify myself and those involved to make myself happy. But it doesn't last very long and then the whole cycle starts again.

To understand things from other peoples point of view is sometimes hard to do. To know how they think, what they think and why they think that is something you can only assume unless they tell you. So all you can really do is hope that you assume correctly. But what if you don't? What if what you think is wrong but yet you have already based your actions and their actions upon it? That's when you get yourself into trouble. Because you have assumed wrongly, your actions are questioned by those around you and are deemed as 'unusual' or 'weird' or 'not yourself'. Which technically is true because you are acting different to accomodate for those you have assumed wrongly.

If the above doesn't make any sense, don't worry, its only suppose to make sense to me :) Basically these things have happened for a reason but I just don't know what that reason is right now. And its frustrating when I can't seem to find what it is. I think and ponder and analyse and think 'what if's'... but it doesn't get me anywhere. I go round and round in circles till I end up where I began. I just hope that what I have assumed is correct and that what I'm doing about it will lead me to the reason for why it happened. After all, patience is a virtue. :)

my thoughts @ 12:14 PM

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