Isolated and alone.

It has been one busy week this week and I have a feeling its not gonna stop there. My usual routine for the week is this:
6:30am - I get up
8am - I'm at school
3:30pm - School finishes
3:30pm onwards - planning

But my days don't usually end when the bell goes. On top of the daily routine this week...
Monday - Staff meeting that go till 5:30pm even sometimes 6pm
Tuesday - I had open night so I stayed till 9pm
Wednesday - Had a grade level meeting which went till 5:30
Thursday - I had to work then stayed up till 3am preparing my paper work for my uni supervisor
Friday - uni surpervisor came to assess me plus I had to work at night
Saturday - I had to work

And in between all that, I stay up till midnite onwards writing up all my lesson plans, evaluating my lessons from that day, making worksheets and games for the students for the next day... it just never ends. For all you people who think teaching is such an easy job... I challenge you to take one week of full control in a classroom and then tell me how easy a teacher's job is! Even I didn't think there was so much involved! There are so many little extra things that lecturers can't teach or tell us about. Which is what teaching placements are all about. To learn the things that can't be taught. It just has to be experienced. And for the past 3 weeks, I have learnt probably the same amount about teaching than I have over the past 3.5 years of uni. Sounds silly, yet true. It's no use learning all this theory in the lectures but not being able to apply it. Only now have I been able to understand and use the textbooks we have to help me prepare and apply it in the classroom.

Though on top of having lots of fun experiencing the teacher's life, I can't help but feel isolated from the world as well. When I read my friends blogs, talk to friends online or on the phone, bump into them somewhere, I see, read and hear all the fun that they're having. Movies, dinners, lunch, dancing. All the fun that I've missed out on. I know it can't be helped... but my feelings also can't be helped. I've been feeling more alone than ever this past week. I just wish that there were more hours in the day to fit in everything. Either that or I wanna clone myself so i can have the best of all worlds. I'm looking forward to going back to uni. But that also mean 2 assignments that are due on the Monday when I return. :(



my thoughts @ 10:37 AM

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