All my life I have wanted to be a teacher. And now that I finally can be one, a part of me doesn't want to anymore. I want to be a student. I'm too young to be working. I want to be able to get a concession card . I want to be covered by my parents health insurance. I want to go to lectures and tutorials and learn stuff. I want to see my uni friends everyday. I want to have exams and then know I have a 3 month holiday after. I want to go to class at 9am and finish 3 hours later. I want to go to uni balls and dress up. I want to be in Flare. I want to go on teaching placements knowing I can make mistakes.

The only thing I won't miss are assignments.

But then the other part of me is wanting to start work. To have my own class of kids. To teach them things they never knew. To help those with learning difficulties. To make a difference in each child's life. To be remember as one of those 'cool' teachers. To make new friends with collagues. To plan new and exciting activities for the children. To take them on exciting excursions. To set up my own classroom. To be part of a team. To discuss new ideas. To incorporate my own teaching style.

But its scary. And I am really scared. It's my final day of uni today and I am so sad. I feel like crying. Knowing I wont get to see my girls everyday... that's probably the worst part of it all. Everyday I look forward to coming to uni... only to know that whatever happens, I will always have jess and ling to talk to and laugh with. They have been there with me through everything in the last 3 years. So many memories... so many fun moments... lots of laughter... lots of outings... lots of food... haha... our silly chats... our serious ones... omg, I'm gonna miss them so much.

I know we still have our exams left to see each other... and your graduation... but today will be the last day that I get to spend a lecture and tutorial with you guys. Today will be the last day that we attend a lecture for a subject. Today will be the last day that we draw on each others notes during class. Today will be the last day we see all our other coursemates. Today will be the last day where we turn up just so we can take attendance. Today will be the last day that we wait for the lift in the Doug McDonnel building. Today will be the last day that I greet you in the foyer. Today will be the last day of the uni life we will spend together. And that makes me sad. I will miss you girls, dearly. *hugglez*

my thoughts @ 9:09 AM

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