My brother put on his red jumper today. Red = Year 12. My baby brother is growing up. And he's not the only one. I got my Victorian Institution of Teaching (VIT) card today. Yep, no longer a student, officially a teacher. I am qualified to take a class - all by myself! hehe. I was so excited when I saw the envelope in the mail. I have been waiting for it for AGES! And finally it arrived.

But even though I've received it... a part of me kinda didn't want it to arrive. Because that meant I had no more excuse to not start teaching. No more excuse to not grow up. No more excuse to have less responsibility.

There are so many things I have to change this year. Not only am I going from a full time student to a graduate to a worker... I also have to change my bank account so I don't get charged as much because I'm no longer a student, I have to gather paperwork for registration for CRT, I need to attend professional development courses to broaden my knowledge on teaching, I have to see how long I can stay working at my part-time job and how CRT will affect it, and I have to seriously start thinking about where my life is taking me.

I got to talk to jess the other day. Finally! I haven't heard from her since she left Melbourne. Was thinking that she had forgotten about me. :( And i wouldn't blame her... judging from what she was telling me. The poor thing sounds so stressed and tired with the amount of work she has to do. Just talking about it with her made ME stressed and tired! lolz. But jess, it'll pay off. That first year will always be hard. But its part of the learning process... and you'll look back and know it was worth it.

My brother has been in Europe for more than a month. And I have to say... I miss him. Like just now, I thought I heard the garage door opening... coz this is the time he usually comes home from uni. But it was the neighbour's garage door. And just the other day it was his birthday... and I wanted to buy a cake for him like I usually do... but realised I didn't have to. It's true what they say... 'you don't know what you have until it's gone'.

I nearly got run over by a car the other day. I was at the zebra crossing and the car had slowed down because two guys crossing from the other side were already walking across. So obviously I thought the car would stop for me too. So I crossed. And when I got to the middle of the crossing, I could see in the corner of my eye that the car started moving slowly... and thinking it would stop, i just kept walking... and by the time the driver realised I was crossing, the car was about 20cm away from me. Stoopid woman! >.< Luckily she was driving so slowly... otherwise she wouldn't have stopped in time and would have hit me! And she didn't even apologize! She just waved at me to say 'keep crossing'. Stoopid woman!

Been out, here and there. Not much though. Don't know why... haven't been in a social mood lately. Even online, I don't really talk to many people... only the important ones... =P hehe. Been out with a small group of Flare peeps for lunch and dinner... and watching X-men. Went to the movies with mum yesterday (for the first time in like AGES) and saw Dreamgirls. That was good. Loved how they told the story with songs. And boy, can that Jennifer Hudson sing! Her voice was amazing! funny that Simon from American Idol told her that she was way outta her league when wanting to be the American Idol. lolz. She sure showed him! hehe

I'm only working weekends now because I told my manager ages ago that I may be getting a job around this time (obviously not anymore) so she only put me down for weekend shifts just in case. But now, seeing as I haven't gotten a job, I have so much free time on my hands that I have no idea what to do with myself. And like i said, I haven't been in the mood to socialize. So my day usually consists of walking up and down my staircase about 30 times a day. lolz. I'll go upstairs to check who's online... go back downstairs to watch tv... come back upstairs to listen to music... go back downstairs to get something to eat... and it continues for the rest of the day. lolz. What a sad life... lolz. Hence I've decided to take up a hobby. I'm learning the piano all over again. My sight reading sucks! lolz... so I've decided to use my time wisely and put it to good use. I'm currently learning a song from a Korean Drama 'My name is Kim Samsoon'. Oh thats another thing I've been doing lately. Watching a lot of korean dramas. haha. I'm so addicted!

Ok, this post is getting boring and I'm just blabbering. Time for bed. Going to make use of my time tomorrow and sort out the CRT paperwork.

my thoughts @ 10:15 PM

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