Despite having an awesome birthday yesterdayand been showered with greetings, sms, pressies and love, I couldn't help but feel a little sad.

People change all the time for different reasons. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. Sometimes they just change. I've never been a supporter of change coz that means I have to adapt to something new. Something that I may not be comfortable with. Something that I struggle to deal with.

Birthdays can sometimes show who your real/closer friends are. Those who can take 5 mins out of their day to call or send you an sms, an email or card. Those who sacrifice time to take you out to lunch/dinner, visit you or buy you a present even though they're busy with their own life. It is those people who I appreciate. Those are the people that make me happy. Those are the friends I want for life.

So why do I care about the other people who don't do any of the above? Why do I care about the people who claim to be a good friend but don't even send you a birthday wish on your special day? Why do I care about the people... who just don't care about me anymore? I don't know the answers myself, but I do know that it makes me sad. I'm not saying forgetting to send me a birthday greeting is the 'end of the world'... or that i expect every single person I know to remember my birthday... i guess there are just a select few that should. Knowing that these people were once really good friends... but because of change... things are very different now. I guess I just miss them.

my thoughts @ 8:06 AM

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