Teaching has been a passion of mine ever since I can remember. For most of my life, I have wanted to become a teacher. 13 years at school, 4 years at uni, I was so eager to get out into the real world... the working world... and apply my knowledge, theory and practice.

That time has finally come but somehow the real world doesn't seem so exciting.

I got a 2 week job to run a kinder program. When I first heard about it, I was really excited. But today when I went for my planning day, unfortunately, it wasn't what I was expecting. I thought it was an actual kindergarten centre. But its not. It's a long day care centre (i.e. childcare) that wants to implement a kinder program in the afternoon. Sounds simple enough yeah? Wrong. Not only do I have to implement this program for them... the director has never run a kinder program before so if I need help, she can't help me! None of the staff can help me coz they've never run a program either and I'm the only qualified one there to run a kindergarten program. Which is good in a way... but bad because its one of my first jobs.

PLUS (yes, there's more) not only will I be implementing a program for the first time in the centre... but it will be my very first time I have full control! Full control of the planning, full control of what goes into the planning, full control of the children, full control of my teaching strategies... and yeah, you get the point. It's such a big responsibility and I'm scared. Scared that things won't go right. Scared that the children won't listen to me. Scared that I won't be able to handle it. *sigh...

Well, too late to pull out of it now... I just gotta learn to swim in the deep end...

my thoughts @ 11:45 PM

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